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• a character, and being disliked by the world, and the world shall pay us for • world; well, and fuppoling all this preaching, whether we like each other • to be true, what then! who cares for or not.' • the world? We'll preach for the
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OU will probably be pleased to delivery; but each, when strially ext
see my letter dated from Terki, mined, appeared inpracticable: in this a city which lies beyond the bounds of uncertainty, the evening again arrived, the Perrian empire : here, blessed with and I placed myself on my former ftasecurity, with all that is dear, I double tion, in hopes of a repeated vitit. Pofter my raptures, by communicating them fome short expectation, the bright pore to you; the mind lyinpathizing with fection again appeared : I bowed, as bethe freedom of the body, my whole fore, to the ground; when, railing me foul is dilated iv gratitude, love, and up, she observed, that the time was not praise.
to be spent in useless ceremony; the ob, Yet, were my own happiness all that served, that the day following was apinspired my present joy, my raptures pointed for the celebration of her nupmight juitly merit the imputation of tials, and that lomething was to be done felf-interest; but when I think that the that very night for our mutual delivera beautiful Zelis is also free, forgive my I offered, with the utmost hunia triumph, when I boast of having rescued lity, to purtue whatever scheme the from captivity the moit deserving objeet mould direct; upon which she proposed upon earth.
that initant to Icale the garden-wall; You remember the reluctance the adding, that he had prevailed upon a testified, at being obliged to marry the female flave, who was now waiting at tyrant she hated. Her compliance at the appointed place, to afiiit her with a last was only feigned, in order to gain lauiler. time to try some future means of escape. Parfuant to this information, I led During the interval between her promise her trembling to the place appointed; and the intended performance of it, the but, inttead of the Slave we expected to came undiscovered, one evening, to the fee, Moitadad himself was there waiting place where I generally retired after the our arrival; the wretch, in whom we fatigues of the day; her app'arance was confided, it feems, had hetrayed our delike that of an aerial genius, when it de- sign to her maiter, and he now law the fcends to minilter comfort to undelerv- moft convincing proofs of her informaed dittress; the mild lustre of her eye tion. He was jutt going to draw his served to banish my timidity; her ac- fabre, when a principle of avarico recents were tweeter than the echo of some preiled his fury, and he retolved, after diftant fymphony. Unhapoy itranger,' a fevere chattisement, to dispole of nie faid me, in the Persian language, you to another matter ; in the mean time or :
here perceive one more wretched than a dering me to be confined in the stricteit • thylelt; all this folemnity of prepara. manner, and the next day to receive an • tion, this elegance of drets, and the hundred blows on the soles of my feet. ' number of my attendants, lerve but to When the morning came, I was led. • encrease my miteries; if you have out in order to receive the punishment, • courage to rescue an unhappy woman which, from the severity with which it • from approaching ruin, and our de- is generally inflicted upon flaves, is s tested tyrant, you may depend upon worfe even than death.
my future gratitude,' 'I bowed to the A trumpet was to be a signal for the ground, and the left me, filled with folemnization of the nuptials of Zelis, rapture and astonishinent. Night brought and for the infiction of iny punishment. me no reft; nor could the entving morn- Each ceremony, to me equally (reading calm the anxieties of my mind. I ful, was just going to begin, when we projected a thousand methods for her were informed that a large party of
Circasian Tartars had invaded the town, tice, and in three days arrived at Terki,
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the fatigues of our precipitate • West, where the men are braver, and flight, my curiolity, which had been re- ' the women more fair, than those of ftrained by the appearance of immediate « Circassia; where the valour of the hero danger, now began to revive : I longed 'is guided by wisdom, and where delito know by what diltressful accidents cacy of sentiment points the shafts of my fair fugitive became a captive, and female beauty. I was the only daughcould not avoid teitifying a furprize, how ' ter of an officer in the army, the child fo much beauty could be involved in • of his age; and, as he used fondly to the calamities from whence le had been express it, the only chain that bound fo lately rescued.
him to the world, or made his life · Táik hot of personal charms,' cried pleasing. His station procured bim fhe, with emotion, 'fince to them I owe an acquaintance with men of greater • every misfortune: look round on the " rank of fortune than himself, and his
numberless beauties of the country regard for me induced him to bring where we are, and see how Nature has 'me into every family where he was ac
poured it's charms upon every face; quainted. Thus I was early taught ' and yet, by this profufion, Heaven • all the elegancies and fashionable foi6 would seem to thew how litde it re- • bles of such as the world calls polite; • gards such a blefling, fince the gift is and, though without fortune myself, • lavished upon a nation of prostitutes. was taught to despise those who lived
• I perceive you desire to know my as if they were poor. • ftory, and your curiolity is not to • My intercourse with the great, and
great as my impatience to gratify it: my affectation of grandeur, procured • I find a pleasure in telling patt mil- me many lovers: but want of for• fortunes to any; but when my deli- • tune deterred them all from any other verer is pleased with the relation, my
• views than those of passing the pre. pleasure is proinpted by duty. • sent moment agreeably, or of meditat,
* This story bears a striking fimilitude to the real history of Miss Sd, who accoma panied Lady We, in her retreat near Florence, and which the editor had from her own mouth. .
ing my future'ruin. In every com- • ther, who desired to see me that mo. pany I found myself addressed in a
I role with some surprize; a
and • warmer Atrain of pafsion than other . following the mefTenger, attended • ladies who were superior in point of only by another fervant, came to a " rank and beauty; and this I imputed « field not far from the house, where I • to an excess of respect, which in reali- • found him, the assertor of my honour,
ty proceeded from very different mo- • my only friend and supporter, the tutives.
• tor and companion of my youth, lying . Among the number of such as paid on one side covered over with blood, « me their addresses, was a gentleman, and just expiring. No tears itreamed • a friend of my father, l'ather in the de- down my cheeks, nor sigh escaped from • cline of life, with nothing remarka- my breast, at an object of such terror. • ble, either in his person or address, to . I sat down., and supporting his aged
recommend him. His age, which was • head in my lap, gazed upon the ghastly * about forty, his fortune, which was visage with an agony more poignant
moderate, and barely sufficient to sup- even than despairing madness. The • port him, served to throw me off my . servants were gone for more affiftance.
guard; so that I considered him as the • In this gloomy Millness of the night, I only sincere admirer I had.
' no sounds were heard but his ago. • Designing lovers, in the decline of nizing respirations; no object was pre• life, are ever most dangerous. Skill- • sented but his wounds, which still con. • ed in all the weaknesses of the sex, tinued to stream. With filent an• they seize each favourable opportu- guith I hung over his dear face, and • nity; and by having less pasion than with my hands strove to stop the blood I youthful admirers, have less real re. as it flowed from his wounds; he • spect, and therefore less timidity. • seemed at first insensible; but at last, • This insidious wretch used a thou- • turning his dying eyes upon memo • fand arts to succeed in his base designs; “ My dear, dear child !” cried he;
all which I saw, but imputed to dif- “ dear, though you have forgotten your • ferent views, because I thought it ab- own honour, and stained mine, I will « surd to believe the real motives. “ yet forgive you; by abandoning vir
• As he continued to frequent my fa- tue, you have undone me and your* ther's, the friendship between them “ felf, yet take my forgiveness with the • became every day greater ; and at latt, " same compassion I wish Heaven may s from the intimacy with which he was “ pity me." He expired. All my luca
received, I was taught to look upon ceeding happiness Aed with him. Re• him as a guardian and a friend. ' fecting that I was the cause of his « Though I never loved, yet I esteemed • death, whom only I loved upon earth; • him ; and this was enough to make " accused of betraying the honour of • me with for an union, for which he • his family with his latest breath; con« seemed defirous, but to which he ' scious of my own innocence, yet with
feigned several delays; while, in the out even a possibility of vindicating
mean time, from a false report of our 'it; without fortune, or friends to re• being married, every other admirer • lieve or pity me, abandoned to infa. « forfook me.
• my, and the wide censuring world, I ' I was at last, however, awakened • called out upon the dead body that lay from the delusion, by an account of
< stretched before me, and in the agony • his being just married to another young " of my heart asked, why he could have • lady with a considerable fortune. • left me thus? “Why, my dear, my • This was no great mortification to me, " only papa, why could you ruin me • as I had always regarded him merely “ thus, and yourself, for ever! O pity, • from prudential motives; but it had " and return, since there is none but you
a very different effect upon my father, to comfort me!" (who, rath and passionate by nature, " I foon found that I had real cause • and, besides, ftimulated by a mistaken for sorrow; that I was to expect no • nction of military honour, uplıraided compassion from my own sex, nor af( his friend in such terms, that a chal. « fistance from the other; and that re• lenge was foon given and accepted. putation was much more useful in our
It was about midnight, when I was commerce with mankind, than really o awakened by a mellage from my fa- ( to deserve it. Wherever I came, I
• perceived myself received either with palled all her hours between rapture
contempt or deteftation; or whenever and anxiety, ever in an extreme of
I was civilly treated, it was from the agony or of bliss. She felt a pain as • moft bale and ungenerous motives. ' fincere for want of appetite, as the
• Thus driven from the society of the • Itarving wretch who wants a meal. • virtuous, I was at lait, in order to dif-, ! In thole intervals the usually kept her < pel the anxieties of insupportable 10- • bed, and role only when in expe&ta• Jitude, obliged to take up with the tion of some new enjoyment. The company
of those whose characters "luxuriant air of the country, the rowere blasted like my own; but who, mantic situation of her palace, and • perhaps, deserved their infamy. A- (the genius of a people, whose only hapo
mong this number was a lady of the pinets lies in ientual refinement, all • firit distinction, whole character the • contributed to banith the remembrance public thought proper to brand even
" of her native country. • with greater infamy than mine. A But though such a life gave her « fimilitude of diftreis soon united us : • pleasure, it had a very different effect ! I knew that general reproach had upon me; I grew every day more pen( made her milerable; and I had learn. • live, and my melancholy was regard• ed to regard milery as an excuse for • ed as an insult upon her good humour. guilt. Though this lady had not
• I now perceived myselt entirely untit ovirrue enough to avoid reproach, yet • for all fociety; diicarded from the • she had too much delicate sensibility "good, and deieiting the infamous, I • not to feel it. She therefore propor- « leemed in a state of war with every • ed our leaving the country where we rank of people; that virtue, which • were born, and going to live in Italy, • should have been my protection in the • where our characters and misfortunes : world, was here my crime: in fhort,
would be unknown. With this I ( detciting life, I was deterinined to be• eagerly complied; and we foon found come a reclutie, to leave a world where • ourlelves in one of the most charming • I found no pleasure that could allure • retreats in the most beautiful province me to ttay. Thus deterinined, I emof that enchanting country.
• barked, in order to go by iea to Rome, • Had my companion choten this as a ! where I intended to take the veil; but,
retreat for injured virtue, an harbour even in to thort a pailaze, my bard • where we might look with tranquillity fortune itill attended me; our ship s on the distant angry world, I Thould was taken by a Barbary corsair ; the I have been happy ; but very different • whole crew, and I among the num.
was her delign; she had pitched upon • ber, being made flaves. It carries • this fituation only to enjoy those plea- 6 too much the air of ronance, to in• sures in private, which she had not • form you of my diftreiles or obstinacy • fufficient effrontery to satisfy in a in this miserable ftate; it is enougla ! more open manner. A nearer ac- • to oblerve, that I have been bought • quaintance foon thewed me the vici- • by several matters, each of whom perous part of her character; her mind,
• ceiving my reluctance, rather than as well as her body, seemed formed use violence, fol me to another, till
only for pleasure; she was sentimen- • it was my happiness to be at latt re• tal only as it served to protract the im
<scued by you. • mediate enjoyment. Formed for fo. Thus ended her relation, which I * ciety alone, the spoke infinitely better have abridged; but as foon as we are • than she wrote, and wrote infinitely arrived at Moscow, for which we ind
better than the lived. A perfon de- tend to let out tharıly, you thall be invoted to pleasure, often leads the moft formed of all more particularly. In milerable life imaginable ; such was the mean time, the greateft addition to her cafe; the considered the natural my happiness will be to hear of yours: moments of languor as insupportable,
LETTER LETTER LXI.
FROM THE SAME.
THE news of your freedom lifts the endugh for one man to know; and this
load of former anxiety from my (whatever the professors may tell you to mind; I can now think of my son with the contrary) sis soon learned. Be conout regret, applaud his resignation under tented therefore with one good employcalamities, and his conduct in extricat- ment; for if you understand two at a ing himself from thein.
time, people will give you business in You are now free, just let loose neither. from the bondage of an hard master,', A conjurer and a taylor once hapThis is the crisis of your fate; and, as pened to converfe together. “Alas,, you now manage fortune, succeeding cries the taylor, 'what an unhappy poor life will be marked with happiness or • creature am I! If people should ever, misery; a few years perseverance in prų- take it in their heads to live without dence, which at your age is but another cloaths, I am undone; I have no other name for virtue, will ensure comfort, • trade to have recourse to.'— Indeed, pleasure, tranquillity, esteem; too eager friend, I pity you fincerely,' replies an enjoyment of every good that now the conjurer; but, thank Heaven, things offers, will reverse the medal, and pre- are not quite so bad with me; for if sent you with poverty, anxiety, remorse, one trick should fail, I have a huncontempt.
i dred tricks for them yet. However, As it has been observed that none are • if at any time you are reduced to begbetter qualified to give others advice, gary, apply to me, and I will relieve than those who have taken the least of " you. A famine overspread the land; it themselves; so, in this respect, I find, the taylor made a shift to live, because myself perfectly authorized to offer mine, his customers could not be withont even though I should wave my paternal cloaths; but the poor conjurer, with all authority upon this occasion.
his hundred tricks, could find none that The moft usual way among young had money to throw away: it was in nen who have no resolution of their vain that he promised to eat fire, or to own, is first to ask one friend's advice, vomit pins; no single creature would reand follow it for some time; then to ask lieve him, till at lait he was obliged to advice of another, and turn to thāt; să beg from the very taylor whose calling of a third, still unsteady, always chang- he had formerly despised. ing. However, be assured that every There are no obstructions more fatal to change of this nature is for the worse': fortune than pride and resentment. If you people may tell you of your being unfit must resent injuries at all, at lealt lupfor some peculiar occupations in life; press your indignation until you become böt freed them not; whatever employ: rich, and then thew away: the resentment you follow with perseverance and ment of a poor man is like the efforts of affiduity, will be found fit for you; it a harmless infect to thing; it may get will be your support in youth, and com- him crushed, but cannot defend him. fort in age." In learning the useful part Who values that anger which is conof every profession, very moderate abi. sumed only in einpty menaces? lities will suffice; even if the mind be a Once upon a time a goose fed it's little balanced with Aupidity, it may in young by a pond lide; and a goole, in this case be useful. Great abilities have such circumftances, is always extremely always been less serviceable to the pore proud, and excessively punailious. If feflors than moderate ones. Life has any other animal, without the leatt de- ' been compared to a race; but the allu. sign to offend, happened to pass that son till improves, by observing, that way, the goose was immediately at him. the moft swift are ever the least manage. ' The pond, she said, was hers, and the able.
would maintain a right in it, and supTo know one profebion only, is párt hér honour, while she had a bib