I nodded. "And won't you be sorry to leave poor Bessie ?" "What does Bessie care for me? She is had given mine, without experiencing after- ing solitary thing: and you are going to school, ward the pang of remorse and the chill of I suppose?" reaction. A ridge of lighted heath, alive, glaneing, devouring, would have been a meet emblem of my mind when I accused and menaced Mrs. Reed; the same ridge, black and blasted after the flames are dead, would have repre- I always scolding me. sented as metely my subsequent condition, "Because you're such a queer, frightened, when half an hour's silence and reflection | shy little thing. You should be bolder." had shown me the madness of my conduct, and the dreariness of my hated and hating position. "What! to get more knocks?" "Nonsense! But you are rather put upon, that's certain. My mother said, when she came to see me last week, that she would not like a little one of her own to be in your place. Now come in, and I've some good news for you." "I don't think you have, Bessie." 'Child! What do you mean? rowful eyes you fix on me! What sor pack your trunk. Missis intends you to leave Gateshead in a day or two, and you shall choose what toys you like to take with you." Bessie, you must promise not to scold me any more till I go." : Something of vengeance I had tasted for the first time; as aromatic wine it seemed on swallowing, warm and racy; its after-flavor, metallic and corroding, gave me a sensation as if I had been poisoned. Willingly would I now have gone and asked Mrs. Reed's pardon; but I knew, partly from experience and partly from Well! but missis instinct, that was the way to make her repulse and the young ladies and Master John are gome with double scorn, thereby re-exciting ev-ing out to tea this afternoon, and you shall ery turbulent impulse of my nature. have tea with me. I'll ask the cook to bake I would fain exercise some better faculty than you a little cake, and then you shall help me to that of fierce speaking; fain find some nourish-look over your drawers; for I am soon to ment for some less fiendish feeling than that of somber indignation. I took a book, some Arabian tales; I sat down and endeavored to read. I could make no sense of the subject; my own thoughts swam always between me and the page I had always found fascinating. I opened a glass door in the breakfast-room; the shrubbery was quite still; the black frost reigned, unbroken by sun or breeze, through the grounds. I covered my head and arms with the skirt of my frock, and went out to walk in a part of the plantation which was quite sequestered; but I found no pleasure in the silent trees, the fallen fir-cones, the congealed relics of autumn, russet leaves, swept by past winds in heaps, and now stiffened together. I leaned against a gate, and locked into an empty field where no sheep were feeding, where the short grass was nipped and blanched. It was a very gray day; a most opaque sky, "onding on snaw,' canopied all; thence flakes fell at intervals, which settled on the hard path and on the hoary lea without melting. I stood, a wretched child enough, whispering to myself over and over again, "What shall I do? what shall I do?" All at once I heard a clear voice call, "Miss Jane! where are you? Come to lunch!" It was Bessie, I knew well enough; but I did not stir: her light step came tripping down the path. "You naughty little thing!" she said. " Why don't you come when you are called?" Bessie's presence now, compared with the thoughts over which I had been brooding, seemed cheerful; even though, as usual, she was somewhat cross. The fact is, after my conflict with, and victory over, Mrs. Reed, I was not disposed to care much for the nursemaid's transitory anger; and I was disposed to bask in her youthful lightness of heart. I just put my two arms round her, and said, "Come, Bessie! don't scold." The action was more frank and fearless than any I was habituated to indulge in somehow it pleased her. | Well, I will but mind you are a very good girl, and don't be afraid of me. Don't start when I chance to speak rather sharply it's so provoking." : "I don't think I shall ever be afraid of you again, Bessie, because I've got used to you; and I shall soon have another set of people to dread." "If you dread them they'll dislike you." "As you do, Bessie?" "I don't dislike you, miss; I believe I am fonder of you than all the others." "You don't show it." "You little sharp thing! you've got quite a new way of talking. What makes you so venturesome and hardy?" "Why, I shall soon be away from you, and besides- I was going to say something about what had passed between me and Mrs. Reed; but on second thoughts I considered it better to remain silent on that head." "And so you are glad to leave me ?" "Not at all, Bessie; indeed, just now I am rather sorry." "Just now! and rather! How coolly my little lady says it! I dare say now, if I were to ask you for a kiss you wouldn't give it me: you'd say you would rather not. “I'll kiss you and welcome: bend your head down." Bessie stooped; we mutually em braced, and I followed her into the house quite comforted. That afternoon lapsed in peace and harmony; and in the evening Bessie told me some of her most enchaining stories, and sung me some of her sweetest songs. Even for me life had its gleams of sunshine CHAPTER V. "You are a strange child, Miss Jane," she FIVE o'clock had hardly struck on the mora caid, as she looked down at me: "a little rov-ing of the 19th January when Bessie brought a candle into my closet and found me already | sie and Gateshead; thus whirled away to anup and nearly dressed. I had risen half an known, and, as I then deemed, remote and hour before her entrance, and had washed my mysterious regions. face and put on my clothes by the light of a I remember but little of the journey: I only half-moon just setting, whose ray streamed know that the day seemed to me of a preterthrough the narrow window of my little crib. natural length, and that we appeared to travel I was to leave Gateshead that day by a coach over hundreds of miles of road. We passed which passed the lodge gates at six A.M. Bes-through several towns, and in one-a very large sie was the only person yet risen; she had one-the coach stopped; the horses were taken lighted a fire in the nursery, where she now out, and the passengers alighted to dine. I proceeded to make my breakfast. Few child- was carried into an inn, where the guard wantren can eat when excited with the thoughts of ed me to have some dinner; but, as I had no a journey; nor could I. Bessie, having press-appetite, he left me in an immense room with ed me in vain to take a few spoonfuls of the a fireplace at each end, a chandelier pendent boiled milk and bread she had prepared for me, from the ceiling, and a little red gallery high up wrapped up some biscuits in a paper and put against the wall filled with musical instruments. them into my bag; then she helped me on with Here I walked about a long time, feeling very my pelisse and bonnet, and, wrapping herself in | strange, and mortally apprehensive of some a shawl, she and I left the nursery. As we one coming in and kidnapping me: for I bepassed Mrs. Reed's bedroom, she said, "Will lieved in kidnappers, their exploits having fre vou go in and bid missis good-by?” quently figured in Bessie's fireside chronicles. At last the guard returned; once more I was stowed away in the coach, my protector mounted his own seat, sounded his hollow horn, and away we rattled over the "stony street" of L No, Bessie: she came to my crib last night when you were gone down to supper, and said I need not disturb her in the morning, or my cousins either; and she told me to remember that she had always been my best friend, and to speak of her and be grateful to her accordingly." "What did you say, miss?" | Lulled by the sound, I at last dropped asleep: I had not long slumbered when the sudden cessation of motion awoke me; the coach-door was thrown open, and a person like a servant was standing at it; I saw her face and dress by the light of the lamps. "Is there a little girl called Jane Eyre, here?" she asked. I answered, "Yes," and was then lifted out; my trunk was handed down, and the coach instantly drove away. The moon was set, and it was very dark; Bessie carried a lantern, whose light glanced on wet steps and gravel road sodden by a recent thaw. Raw and chill was the winter morning; my teeth chattered as I hastened down the drive. There was a light in the porter's lodge; when we reached it we found the porter's wife just kindling her fire: my I was stiff with long sitting, and bewildered trunk, which had been carried down the even- with the noise and motion of the coach: gathing before, stood corded at the door. It want-ering my faculties, I looked about me. Rain, ed but a few minutes of six, and shortly after wind, and darkness filled the air; nevertheless, that hour had struck, the distant roll of wheels I dimly discerned a wall before me, and a door announced the coming coach; I went to the open in it; through this door I passed with my door and watched its lamps approach rapidly new guide; she shut and locked it behind her. through the gloom. There was now visible a house or houses-for the building spread far-with many windows, and lights burning in some; we went up a broad, pebbly path, splashing wet, and were ad mitted at a door; then the servant led me through a passage into a room with a fire, where she left me alone. "Is she going by herself!" asked the porter's wife. "Yes." "And how far is it ?" Fifty miles." "What a long way! I wonder Mrs. Reed is not afraid to trust her so far alone.” I stood and warmed my numbed fingers over The coach drew up; there it was at the gates, the blaze, then I looked round; there was no with its four horses and its top laden with pass-candle, but the uncertain light from the hearth engers: the guard and ec.coman loudly urged haste; my trunk was hoisted up; I was taken from Bessie's neck, to which I clung with Kisses. "Be sure and take good care of her," cried she to the guard, as he lifted me into the inside. showed by intervals, papered walls, carpet, curtains, shining mahogany furniture; it was a parlor, not so spacious or splendid as the draw ing-room at Gateshead, but comfortable enough. I was puzzling to make out the subject of a pic ture on the wall, when the door opened, and an individual carrying a light entered; anothe followed close behind. 'Ay, ay!" was the answer: the door was clapped to, a voice exclaimed "All right” and The first was a tall lady, with dark hair, dark BL we drove Thus was I severed from Bes-eyes, and a pale and large forehead; her figure "And hungry, too, no doubt; let her have some supper before she goes to bed, Miss Miller. Is this the first time you have left your parents to come to school, my little girl?" I explained to her that I had no parents. She inquired how long they had been dead; | then, how old I was, what was my name, whether I could read, write, and sew a little then she touched my cheek gently with her forefinger, and saying, "She hoped I should be a good child," dismissed me along with Miss Miller. The lady I had left might be about twentynine; the one who went with me appeared some years younger; the first impressed me by her voice, look, and air. Miss Milier was more ordinary; ruddy in complexion, though of a careworn countenance; hurried in gait and action, like one who had always a multiplicity of tasks on hand; she looked, indeed, what I afterward found she really was, an under-teacher. Led by her, I passed from compartment to compartment, from passage to passage, of a large and irregular building; till, emerging from the total and somewhat dreary silence pervading that portion of the house we had traversed, we came upon the hum of many voices, and presently entered a wide, long room, with great deal tables, two at each end, on each of which burned a pair of candles, and, seated all round on benches, a congregation of girls of every age from nine or ten to twenty. Seen by the dim light of the dips, their number to me appeared countless, though not in reality exceeding eighty; they were uniformly dressed in brown stuff frocks of quaint fashion, and long holland pinafores. It was the hour of study; they were engaged in conning over their to-morrow's task, and the hum I had heard was the combined result of their whispered repetitions. Miss Miller signed to me to sit on a bench near the door, then walking up to the top of the long room, she cried out : Monitors, collect the lesson-books and put them away!" Four tall girls arose from different tables, and going round, gathered the books and removed them. Miss Miller again gave the word of command: Monitors, fetch the supper trays!" The tall girls went out and returned presenty, each bearing a tray, with portions of something, I knew not what, arranged thereon, and a pitcher of water and mug in the middle of each tray. The portions were handed round; those who liked took a draught of the water, the mug being common to all. When it came to my turn, I drank, for I was thirsty, but did not touch the food, excitement and fatigue rendering me incapable of eating; I now saw, nowever, that it was a thin oaten cake, shared into fragments B The meal over, prayers were read by Miss Miller, and the classes filed off, two and two, up stairs. Overpowered by this time with weariness, I scarcely. noticed what sort of a place the bedroom was, except that, like the schoolroom, I saw it was very long. To-night I was to be Miss Miller's bed-fellow; she helped me to undress. When laid down, I glanced at the long rows of beds, each of which was quickly filled with two occupants; in ten minutes the single light was extinguished; amid silence and complete darkness, I fell asleep. The night passed rapidly; I was too tired even to dream; I only once awoke to hear the wind rave in furious gusts, and the rain fall in torrents, and to be sensible that Miss Miller had taken her place by my side. When I again unclosed my eyes, a loud bell was ringing, the girls were up and dressing, day had not yet begun to dawn, and a rushlight or two burned in the room. I, too, rose reluctantly; it was bitter cold, and I dressed as well as I could for shivering, and washed, when there was a basin at liberty, which did not occur soon, as there was but one basin to six girls, on the stands down the middle of the room. Again the bell rung; all formed in file, two and two, and in that order descended the stairs and entered the cold and dimly-lighted school-room; here prayers were read by Miss Miller; afterward she called out: Form classes !" A great tumult succeeded for some minutes, during which Miss Miller repeatedly exclaimed, Silence!" and "Order!" When it subsided, I saw them all drawn up in four semicircles, before four chairs, placed at the four tables; all held books in their hands, and a great book, like a Bible, lay on each table, before the vacant seat. A pause of some seconds succeeded, filled up by the low, vague hum of numbers; Miss Miller walked from class to class, hushing this indefinite sound. A distant bell tinkled. Immediately three ladies entered the room; each walked to a table and took her seat; Miss Miller assuming the fourth vacant chair, which was that nearest the door, and around which the smallest of the children were assembled; to this inferior class I was called, and placed at the bottom of it. Business now began. The day's collect was repeated, then certain texts of Scripture were said, and to these succeeded a protracted reading of chapters in the Bible, which lasted an hour. By the time that exercise was termina ted, day had fully dawned. The indefatigable bell now sounded for the fourth time; the classes were marshaled, and marched into another room to breakfast. How glad I was to behold a prospect of getting something to eat! I was now nearly sick from inanition, having taken so little the day before. The refectory was a great, low-ceiled, gloomy room; on two long tables smoked basins of something hot, which, however, to my dismay, sent forth an odor far from inviting. I saw a universal manifestation of discontent when the fumes of the repast met the nostrils of those destined to swallow it. From the van of the procession, the tall girls of the first class, ros the whispered words: The porridge is burned en stockings and country-made shoes fastened with brass buckles. Above twenty of those clad in this costume were full-grown girls, or rather, young women: it suited them ill, and gave an air of oddity even to the prettiest. I was still looking at them, and also at inter vals examining the teachers-none of whom precisely pleased me; for the stout one was a "Silence!" ejaculated a voice-not that of Miss Miller, but of one of the upper teachers, a little and dark personage, smartly dressed, but of somewhat morose aspect, who installed herself at the top of one table, while a more buxom lady presided at the other. I looked in vain for her I had first seen the night before-little coarse, the dark one not a little fierce, the she was not visible. Miss Miller occupied the foot of the table, where I sat, and a strange, foreign-looking, elderly lady, the French teacher, as I afterward found, took the corresponding seat at the other board. A long grace was said, and a hymn sung; then a servant brought in some tea for the teachers, and the meal began. Ravenous, and now very faint, I devoured a spoonful or two of my portion without thinking of its taste; but the first edge of hunger blunted, I perceived I had got in hand a nauseous mess. Burned porridge is almost as bad as rotten potatoes; famine itself soon sickens over it. The spoons were moved slowly. I saw each girl taste her food and try to swallow it, but in most cases the effort was soon relinquished. Breakfast was over and none had breakfasted. Thanks being returned for what we had not got, and a second hymn chanted, the refectory was evacuated for the schoolroom. I was one of the last to go out; and, in passing the tables, I saw one teacher take a basin of the porridge and taste it. She looked at the others; all their countenances expressed displeasure, and one of them, the stout one, whispered: "Abominable stuff! How shameful!" A quarter of an hour passed before lessons again begun, during which the school-room was in a glorious tumult. For that space of time it seemed to be permitted to talk loud and more freely, and they used their privilege. The whole conversation ran on the breakfast, which one and all abused roundly. Poor things! it was the sole consolation they had. Miss Miller was now the only teacher in the room; a group of great girls standing about her, spoke with serious and sullen gestures. I heard the name of Mr. Brocklehurst pronounced by some lips; at which Miss Miller shook her head disapprovingly; but she made no great effort to check the general wrath, doubtless she shared in it. A clock in the school-room struck nine; Miss Miller left her circle, and, standing in the middle of the room, cried: "Silence! To your seats!" Discipline prevailed in five minutes the confused throng was resolved into order, and comparative silence quelled the Babel clamor of tongues. The upper teachers now punctually resumed their posts; but still, all seemed to wait. Ranged on benches down the sides of the room, the eighty girls sat motionless and erect; a quaint assemblage they appeared, all with plain locks combed from their faces, not a curl visible; in brown dresses, made high and surrounded by a narrow tucker about the throat, with little pockets of holland (shaped something like a Highlander's purse) tied in front of their frocks and destined to serve the purpose of a work-bag; all, too, wearing wool foreigner harsh and grotesque, and Miss Miller, poor thing! looked purple, weather-beaten, and overworked-when, as my eye wandered from face to face, the whole school rose simultane ously, as if moved by a common spring. What was the matter? I had heard no order given; I was puzzled. Ere I had gathered my wits, the classes were again seated; but as all eyes were now turned to one point, mine followed the general direction, and encountered the personage who had received me last night. She stood at the bottom of the long room, on the hearth; for there was a fire at each end : she surveyed the two rows of girls silently and gravely. Miss Miller approaching, seemed to ask her a question, and, having received her answer, went back to her place, and said aloud, "Monitor of the first class, fetch the globes!' While the direction was being executed, the lady consulted moved slowly up the room. I suppose I have a considerable organ of veneration, for I retain yet the sense of admiring awe with which my eyes tracked her steps. Seen now, in broad daylight, she looked tall, fair, and shapely; brown eyes, with a benignant light in their irids, and a fine penciling of long lashes round, relieved the whiteness of her large front; on each of her temples her hair, of a very dark brown, was clustered in round curls, according to the fashion of those times, when neither smooth bands nor long ringlets were in vogue; her dress, also in the mode of the day, was of purple cloth, relieved by a sort of Spanish trimming of black velvet ; a gold watch (watches were not so common then as now) shone at her girdle. Let the reader add, to complete the picture, refined features; a complexion if pale, clear; and a stately air and carriage, and. he will have, at least as clearly as words can give it, a correct idea of the exterior of Miss Temple-Maria Temple, as I afterward saw the name written in a prayer-book intrusted to me to carry to church. The superintendent of Lowood (for such was this lady) having taken her seat before a pair of globes placed on one of the tables, summonod the first class round her, and commenced giving a lesson in geography; the lower classes were called by the teachers; repetitions in history, grammar, &c., went on for an hour; writing and arithmetic succeeded, and music lessons were given by Miss Temple to some of the elder girls. The duration of each lesson was measured by the clock, which at last struck twelve. The superintendent rose : "I have a word to address to the pupils," said she. The tumult of cessation from lessons was already breaking forth, but it sunk at her voice. She went on : "You had this morning a breakfast which you could not eat; you must be hungry : have ordered that a lunch of bread and cheese shall be served to all." The teachers looked at her with a sort of surprise. "It is to be done on my responsibility," she added, in an explanatory tone to them, and immediately afterward left the room. The bread and cheese was presently brought in and distributed, to the high delight and refreshment of the whole school. The order was now given, "To the garden!" Each put on a coarse straw bonnet, with strings of colored calico, and a cloak of gray frieze. I was similarly equipped, and, following the stream, I made my way into the open air. The garden was a wide inclosure, surrounded with walls so high as to exclude every glimpse of prospect; a covered verandah ran down on one side, and broad walks bordered a middle space divided into scores of little beds; these beds were assigned as gardens for the pupils to cultivate, and each bed had an owner. When full of flowers, they would, doubtless, look pretty; but now, at the latter end of January, all was wintry blight and brown decay. I shuddered as I stood and looked around me: it was an inclement day for out-door exercise-not positively rainy, but darkened by a drizzling, yellow fog; all underfoot was still soaking wet with the floods of yesterday. The stronger among the girls ran about and engaged in active games, but sundry pale and thin ones herded together for shelter and warmth in the verandah; and among these, as the dense mist penetrated to their shivering frames, I heard frequently the sound of a hollow cough. As yet I had spoken to no one, nor did any body seem to take notice of me; I stood lonely enough but to that feeling of isolation I was accustomed, it did not oppress me much. I leaned against a pillar of the verandah, drew my gray mantle close about me, and trying to forget the cold which nipped me without, and the unsatisfied hunger which gnawed me within, delivered myself up to the employment of watching and thinking. My reflections were too undefined and fragmentary to merit record; I hardly yet knew where I was. Gateshead and my past life seemed floated away to an immeasurable distance; the present was vague and strange, and of the future, I could form no conjecture. I looked around the convent-like garden, and then, up at the house, a large building, half of which seemed gray and old, the other half quite new. The new part, containing the school-room and dormitory was lighted by mullioned and latticed windows which gave it a church-like aspect; a stone tablet over the door bore this inscription: "Lowood Institution. This portion was rebuilt A.D. , by Naomi Brocklehurst, of Brocklehurst Hall, in this county." Let your light so shine before men that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father which is in heaven.'-St. Matt., v., 16." I read these words over and over again: I felt that an explanation belonged to them, and was unable fully to penetrate their import. I was still pondering the signification of "Institution," and endeavoring to make out a conaection between the first words and the verse of Scripture, when the sound of a cough, close behind me, made me turn my head. I saw a girl sitting on a stone bench near; she was bent over a book, on the perusal of which she seemed intent; from where I stood I could see the title--it was "Rasselas," a name that struck me as strange, and consequently attractive. In turning a leaf she happened to look up, and said to her directly, "Is Is your book interesting?" I had already formed the intention of asking her to lend it to me some day. "I like it," she answered, after a pause of a second or two, during which she examined me. "What is it about?" I continued. I hardly know where I found the hardihood thus to open a conversation with a stranger; the step was contrary to my nature and habits: but I think her occupation touched a chord of sympathy somewhere; for I, too, liked reading, though of a frivolous and childish kind; I could not digest or comprehend the serious or substantial. "You may look at it," replied the girl, offering me the book. I did so; a brief examination convinced me that the contents were less taking than the title: Rasselas" looked dull to my trifling taste; I saw nothing about fairies, nothing about genii; no bright variety seemed spread over the closely-printed pages. 'I returned it to her; she received it quietly, and without saying any thing, she was about to relapse into her former studious mood: again I ventured to disturb her— "Can you tell me what the writing on that stone over the door means? What is Lowood Institution?" "This house where you are come to live." "And why do they call it Institution? Is it in any way different from other schools?" "It is partly a charity-school: you and I, and all the rest of us are charity-children. I suppose you are an orphan: are not either your father or your mother dead?" Both died before I can remember." "Well, all the girls here have lost either one or both parents, and this is called an insti tution for educating orphans." "Do we pay no money? Do they keep us for nothing?" "We pay, or our friends pay, fifteen pounds a-year for each.” "Then why do they call us charity-children?" "Because fifteen pounds is not enough for board and teaching, and the deficiency is sup. plied by subscription." |